Sunrise @ Port Dickson 27th June 2010

Went to PD with Newlife. Intended to see the sunrise, but too bad we couldn’t make it on time =(
Reached the beach around 7am. The view was awesome with the rainbow on the blue sky <3 It’s great to enjoy the morning with them =)

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After the outing, my nightmare begins.
It seemed like I cant trust anybody anymore. Just because of the rumours those people are spreading for months, he finally couldn’t bear it.
The truth is, we are REALLY just close friend but people around are making our lives irritated. Maybe during and after the outing, he got really annoyed by those continuous words they are saying. Maybe if it was me, I’ll get really annoyed too. But I wouldn’t hurt him as well as myself. Just like how he hurt me. My life was too used to having him by my side, him calling me times and times a day, him accompanying me and vice versa. Maybe that was why I felt hurt after he decided to end our close friendship. He said we should not be so close anymore and should keep our distance. Everything turned 360 degree in just 1 night. Awesome rite? But I couldn’t take it. Thanks for all who made this happened to us. I couldn’t stand it and burst into tears.
This made me realized that there’s no one that I can go to as all my close friends are involved as well. No matter who I find, they will still talk about us. I wanted to leave that situation so I went to Yvonne. Thanks girl for giving me your time <3 At least I still have you. And please be strong k? I know how it feels for losing someone you love but things just couldn’t be right.
I couldn’t go back home that night. I don’t want to be alone and  I can’t. Thanks to Sheng for taking me in that night. What surprised me was that he showed his care. He used to be so cool to me but now I can really see it. Thanks for making me laugh, translating the movie script for me, waiting for me, giving me your pillow,… It was sweet =) I felt much better after stepping out from the situation. I wouldn’t have been so strong if I was alone.
Just imagine your close friend that you do things together just leave you in a glimpse of an eye.  Whats more I’m close to his family as well. Maybe people are trying to break us apart like what always happen to me, well you’ve won.
Maybe this is good for me to think about it. Too much of maybe..
Well, I’m a strong girl and I’m ok now.

Baby KJ’s dad fell sick again. After recovering from the cancerous cells 2 times, they came back again =(
Praying that he will be alright once again.

My dad’s neuro check-up is due in a week. I hope the results are satisfying.

Its my last semester at Raffles and then I’ll go for my internship. Can’t wait for all these to happen. And then, I’ll go for my dream.
I really wish that time could either go backwards or forward. I just don’t like it now.

By the way there’s something that I wanted to confess. I regretted for the past. I regret that I did not treat him better. I regret that I did not show him more love and care like he did. It’s not that I don’t but I just don’t know how to. I’m sorry if I ever made you dissapointed. He’s very happy with the relationship he is in now, and I’m glad he is =) You deserve it <3

Well, god bless me by facing all these strongly and my symptoms won’t continue cause it’s scaring the shit out of me.

En Ru-his sis’s daughter =)

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